A Year Is A Long Time

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The  eagle-eyed amongst you may have noticed that at the start of this month, this blog was a year old. Amazingly, I have been writing down my musings on life, the allotment and our kitchen for a full twelve month period. What’s more people seem to be interested in what I write. It has been a truly humbling experience to read the comments that many of you have left.

I started the blog as a way of documenting aspects of my life as I made a big change in my life. A year ago I was preparing for the beginning of the school term knowing that it was the first time in 15 years that I would not be greeting a new class and getting to grips with 30 new names. Instead I was preparing for the start of my children’s school year and the school run every morning and afternoon. During the period I had had off work sick, the allotment and my kitchen had provided me with some solace and I hoped that sharing some of this with the world may help me in my recovery from depression and anxiety. A year on I am undoubtedly in a better place. I still have low days (weeks occasionally) and can be easily irritated by the most simple of things; but the crippling anxious fear and overwhelming sadness I faced last year has subsided. To some extent this is due in part to the blog and the fact that I made the decision to be open about how I was feeling. Its meant I have accepted how I felt, and many people have commented about similar feelings, as well as offering support.

Having time-out from working, and perhaps most significantly, time-in with the family, has enabled me to re-evaluate what I want from life. I realised that I need to spend time on my own more, I need to socialise more, I need to be creative, I need to cook…..the list goes on. Over the year I’ve had the chance to work out what I want to do, and how it may allow me to have a happier life. So, this September I’m starting another chapter of my life. Over the next few weeks and months I’ll be launching into the world of work again. This time, not as a teacher, but as a baker. Baking bread has been  real therapy for me; the slow, physical, process of baking real bread is a really mindful act and I want to share that with others.  I’m going to start baking; initially on my own, but with the idea of establishing a Community Bakery project, where people can come together and bake for the local community.

Its a bit of a change, but one that excites me, and (if you knew how I felt a year or so ago) being excited about something is a big step.

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7 thoughts on “A Year Is A Long Time

  1. Congratulations on your year of blogging – your posts are always good to read. And good luck with your bakery plans… I’ll be following your progress with interest as I’m seriously considering registering my kitchen with the local authority so that I can bake and sell bread. In fact, I may well be pestering you with questions before long – feel free to ignore me if I become too much of a nusiance!

    • Thanks for your kind comments. It’s been a bit of a mad last 18months, but at least I feel I’m emerging from the tunnel. Feel free to ask away when it comes to bread/baking. I may well ask you some questions too.

  2. First of all, good luck with you new venture! Second, there are some parallels in our lives: I was off sick with anxiety and depression three years ago for six months. I then did go back into teaching as I couldn’t see another way of earning an income and I do enjoy being with young people from overseas. But I went part time and started blogging… Still, not got a totally clear idea of an alternative income but life has a whole new meaning now I have free time to explore other parts of myself 🙂

    • That is so similar to me. I’d love to be able to use the blogging to earn a few quid, as well as the baking of course. I still think I have something to give as a teacher, not in a school though. I know teaching would give me a safe and steady income, but I don’t think it will help me to maintain my recovery. I hope part of the community bakery project is to be teaching baking skills to people in the area – enabling others to share the bread love. Thanks so much for your comment.

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